Exams are over!!!!

Well, I've been done exams for a day now and I am so scared for them to be returned to me. I am not very confident in what I have done with those exams. I mean I did study but for some reason each exam had its own flaw.

ENGLISH - Well, besides feeling rushed, I felt like puking 45 minutes after the exam began and I couldn't look down and concentrate so it had to be put on hold for a few minutes. I thought taking a walk would help, so I asked to go to the bathroom. But it was a fail. When I returned to my seat I still couldn't look down and so I had no choice but to wait it out and hope I would stop feeling sick. It subsided after about 15 minutes. Another problem was that I didn't understand the second synthesis text and I had to read it over more than once. It was 5 pages long which took some of my time away. Needless to say, at the end of the alloted two hours I had was only half way through the Hamlet extended paragraph.
GEOGRAPHY - Geo. was the same day as English but I studied more for geo. and it didn't pay off. Even though the exam was only out of 70, I felt some of the multiple choice questions were hard. I had to go back a few times before I answered the questions. We had a Case Study and we had to write a multi paragraph essay about it. I thought that was easy and I am hoping I have done a good enough job to get a decient mark. At this point, I am hoping my multi - paragraph brought up my exam mark.
FRENCH - My last exam, yet harder then english only because there were so many reading and answering multiple choice questions. I mean 4 was a lot. Could there have been anymore??? It was getting annoying. I also forgot my paragraph so I had to wing it. It was I think the worst paragraph I've ever written. Let's just hope I passed.

I am not looking forward to the report card coming next friday. I mean if I do horiblly then my mother is going to flip out and I am going to be grounded for a long time. Lets just pray that I will be on the honer role. I don't care first or second honers. Anything will do at this point.

The Hectic Life I am Currently Living.....

Well, I have a very hectic life right now. I am busy on weeekends and afterschool and I am falling behind on my homwork. With exams coming up I am struggling to find time to do everything that needs to get done. If I am not at home doing homework, then I am still at school scorkeeping or doing others stuff. The only time I actually have to do nothing is never. I am getting frustarted and I am losing sleep and If I don't get enough sleep then I am dead tired at school and then I will fall asleep in class. I have no clue what to do. I try and try but I can't seem to find a solution. I wish that the teachers can give a small amount of homework each class. I thought we were only supposed to be doing homework for 2 hours a night. These 2 hours have doubled or tripled. Can exams please be over now!!!!! And can the teachers see that we don't have all the time in the world to be doing homework. Most of us are invloved in Parliument, SPM, Scorekeeping, Play, Chamber, sports etc. And yes they are extra cirricular activites but they do take time out of our lives and its hard to squish it all in. There are only 24 hours in a day and I bet most of us kids are only getting between 6-8 hours a sleep a night, maybe even less then that. So I pray that life gets better or else I am going to explode and its only November.

Lots to Be Thankful For

WOW!! I didn't relaize how much I have to be thankful for this Thanksgiving. Today, as I spent Thanksgiving with my family, I was asked to say grace so I did the regular little bit and then I started to pray and I said " I thank you for the family that you have seated infront of me today." After saying that line all the things that I am thankful for rushed right into my brain.
I am thankful for my God, my family, my friends, my coaches, my teachers and anyone who has helped me to be where I am today in my life. I am thankful to have food, sheleter, clean water to drink, books, music, ipods, a cellphone etc. I am thankful for the gift of life.
I love this holiday because I love eating Turkey. Its so good and the way my uncle cooked it was amazing. I wish and hope that all you guys had a good thanksgiving. I have never felt the way I do before. Except this whole time my sister has been putting me down in every way, shape or form she could and it's getting annyoing. I'm at the point where I want to bite her head off or do or say something irrational to her. She getting on my nerves. I hate it. Anyways, back to school tommorow, boy am I not looking forward to that. But I guess thats what has to happen. I guess we all have to get back to normal.

Reflection Time

Hi Guys

I would just like you to take some time now to reflect on what is happening around the world today. the song that I would like you to medidate on is Come Home by One Republic ft. Sara B.

I am Busy on November 27th, 2009

Well, this weekend I purchased tickets to go and see these 12 people in this picture in concert. I am going to see the So You Think You Can Dance top 10 dancers on tour. I am so excited. I actually wanted to go and see them last year in concert but I couldn't get tickets. So I am glad i am going this year. There are some amazing routines that I would love to see again. I am totally routing for Emmanuel (the one in the blue jacket) because he is from Vancouver. I genuinly like all the dancers so I don't think it will matter who wins if its not him.

Finally School is Over for the Week!!

Well, I am thankful school is over for the week. I have been on high since Monday. Trying t0 find out all the homework I missed , getting it all completed, sorting out the Scorekeeping stuff, getting sign up sheets ready and lastly getting all the Grade 12 SPM's together to review and making the meeting schedule. I now have the weekend to complete all the homework and extra assignments I have outstanding.

Off the topic of homework, a lot has been happening at school the last few days regarding the flood in the Philippines. Today Nick and Jessica announced that next week will be a spirit week with everything being dedicated to the people who's lives have been impacted by the flood. Monday will be an assembly just to let everyone know how bad it really is in the Philippines right now. Tuesday to Thursday they will be collecting clothing, shoes and blankets to send to the Philippines. Please donate as much as you can. To conclude the week, on Friday they will be having a Dress Down Day and they have asked that each of us bring $18 which is enough to feed one family for two weeks. At first I thought that was an awfully high amount to ask but money goes a long way there and its for a very good cause. I have been attending school with Philippino's since Kindergarden so I do consider myself a Philippino at heart and I will be donating more then $18 on Friday. I am hopeing that the rest of the shcool will do their part as well.

We also discovered this week that Fr. Anthony will be doing confessions in the Chapel on Wednesday's and Friday's during lunch. He will also be doing Adoration of the blessed sacrament on Thursdays during lunch from 12:45p.m. till 1:05p.m. I did attend on Thursday and it was a great session. I was disappointed at the attendance especially from the garde 12's. Maybe we all can try to go at least once a month and spend a little time with the Lord.

Thats all for today......

A Sum Up of my Grade 12 Year so Far!!!

Well, Grade 12 has been an interesting year so far. There has been a total of 3 weeks of school and I have been to 5 full days of school.That's horrible. I don't think I have ever missed so much school in 1 month in my life. But within the days that i wasn't at school my attention has been towards other important things. SPM, Grade 8 retreat and Ashland!!


The SPM retreat was an amazing experience. I felt so thankful to have been given the oppertunity and I felt very close to the other candidates. The bus ride was long but I slept for most of it. We watch so much Harry Potter that I don't like Harry Potter anymore. I can stand it. I thought my head was going to explode. Overall, I was a very lucky person to have gone on that retreat.

Leading the Grade 8 retreat was great to. I got to get to know some of the grade 8's. They are really cool and funny too. They did have a have a hard time opening up but I expected that. I mean thats why their retreat is entitled JOURNEY!!!! They will eventually get to the point in Grade 12 where they can fully open up. Overall, they were great and they made it fun. Even Anna and Nick's attempt at Journey was good. They are every smart to.

Lastly, and most recently was ASHLAND!!! Party in the USA!!!! I had a blast in Ashland. Although I did feel that Henry the 8th and Don Quiote were boring plays, I enjoyed the other four. My favorite play was The Servant of Two Masters. While shopping in Ashland I picked up this Head Massager thing. Its cool and my whole family really enjoys it. I should have bought 10 more. I also bought Christmas Ornaments. Boy to I loce Paddignton Station. they had a whole section of Christmas stuff and Jessica and I spent like who knows how long in there. We wanted to buy everything. But sadly we had to leave and we went to this place called Yogurt Hut. I mean Heaven in a Cup. First you walk in and pick up a cup. Then you proceed to the different kinds of frozen Yogurt. ie: cookies and cream, vanilla, green tea etc. Then you put topings on top. They literally have any topping you want. ie: granola, cereal, nuts, choclate chips, marshmellows, animal crackers, gummy bears, gummy worms, sprinkles etc. The you proceed to your last stand where yu cna get more toppings. ie. cookie dough ball, reecess pieces cups, fruit, brownies. The you get your sauces. ie: marshmellow, choclate, caramel, starwberry etc. the you go to the till and you pay by the once. It was amazing. I wish they had one here in Vancouver. Then we had the bus ride home. That was ok.

Anyways thats a sum of my grade 12 year so far. More fun times to come.

My Head is Going to Explode!!!

So, i haven't written in a while so i am going to write today. I attended Youth Day 2009 this year and it was amazing. I can't even believe that I only decieded to go this year. It was an amazing day and a half and I am going to go back next year as a participant and maybe the year after as a volunteer. We ate, sang, talked, prayed and went to mass. It was a greta experience, but I wish that I hadgone with different people. People that I am more close to because I felt out of place with the people I went with.
Yetserday at school, we had choir with Ms. Wilks. It was terrible. I thought I was going to kill myself. She was screaming at us and the grade 12's in the alto scetion were like be quiet, be quiet. It is really annoying and its getting on my nerves. I really just want to scream at them an tell them to shut up. They do it every class and I know that they are doing it for the good of the choir but its just getting annoying. So, I think they neeed to keep their cool. I also wnat A to come back and take me out of this missery that I am in. Just to add some more annoyance on my life and this situation A is not even here today so we could have Ms. Wilks after school which I am not looking forward to.
I have so much homework to do. I have an English project that I haven't started on and its due next week. I have to read this elections book for my job next tuesday and I also have to make sure I know all ym music for choir plus swimming everyday of the week. So, I think I have a pretty busy life.

Walking on the Green Grass (MINNESOTA)

i haven't written in a long time but i figure since the choir from minnesota was here i should write about my experience. it was an awsome one. i met so many nice girls especially at my dinner table. Taylor, Ivy, Marian and Acadia. they are all great people. i also got the chance to hear Marcus play the guitar and sing and he was amazing. (i have it on my camera and will put it on facebook.) i found it interesting to hear what they had to say about our very small school and our even smaller "CHOIR PORTABLE". they were amazed at how we fit 110 people in there. i also though it was sweet that they left us a message on the social board in 105. i really think they did appreciate all we had done for them and i also thinkg we gave them the "chicago experience" in vancouver. when we got to the church and i heard them sing, i couldn't believe how good they were and how much power and strength they have.
Only after A. saying that it was the first time we (the concert choir of 2008-2009 school year) had sung, did i relaize how nervous and scared the grade 10's must have been. but i have to say i think we did an awsome job. we did have a little bit of blips along the way but we really deliver and impressed everyone. when i was downstairs in the parish hall after the concert all the duluth choir members could say to me was "your chpoir was amazing or your choir did really well tonight." but i was telling them they did a really good job and i felt like i was repeating myself over again. overall i thought it was an excellent debut performance for our senior concert choir.
i can't wait for tour. its in 1 week and 2 days. its fast approching and yet i have not started to pack nor do i know anything about it. i am actually starting to get a little worried. but i know that we will find some information out soon. i am also not prepared academic wise to leave but i am going to anyways. i am looking forward to making a lot more memories on this tour and making it something that not only us(the grade 11's) but everyone will remeber for the rest of their lives.

Now Spring Break Actually Starts

finally i am free..... of choir and anything else to do with school. i am now able to sleep in till whatever time i feel like and i won't have to talk to anyone. its such a relief. but i am kinda sad because all of my friends are on vacation still so i have no one to go out with. isn't that a bummer??? i am homebound for 4 days straight morning evening and night. but i am full of joy and laughter.

Deep, Deep, Deep, Deep Confusion and Frustration

i am in deep deep deep deep confusion and frustration about life. my life to be exact. and i don't know how to solve them problems that have been stuck in my mind the last few days. i feel like my life is a competition with other people. its like i am not good enough to do anything. i will not be chosen based on how i act, think etc. its the bad qualities that are looked at. i also feel that i am looked at differently then others around me and that the people i think are my friends show me they are not friends to me. just people that i talk to. they show no emotion towards me. i am just an OUTSIDER and am not included. why does this always happen to ME and not anyone else. am i really not good enough or is it that i am not a person people are able to connect to right away. i don't like being ignored or left out. i wish they would make me feel apart of their group but they chose to look past that and they don't realize the consequences that i may feel. hopefully this will turn around but everyday it becomes clearer that this is the way it will alwayds be...... until i graduate.....

Monday

my life is over. I am stuck picking courses for next year. I can't decide which courses to take. chem or Lit. it or family management. I also don't think I am ready for gr.12 to come yet. i am freaking out and I don't think I will be able to get through the next few days. I also want a spare to T. A. for a teahcre and I have one in mind but I am getting the feeling that i won't get to T.A. for the teacher I want. I think I have some competition. Thats not good. if not I have siome backup teachers that I may ask.
after me freaking out about course selections I went to choir and she totally flipped out at us about our rehersal on friday. I had to write about what I did. of course I was late for choir so I even had to explain that again but i wasn't texting, or sitting or any of that. and I think I am a little tired of her and I want him to come back asap.... hopefully tommorow we will have him again so that I can have a few days break from her. but stuck with her on monday.

Friday's

how do I begin to describe how i feel about fridays. its the one day of the week when i just want to leave school early and go home. but choir is stopping me from doing that sometimes and i thought I was going to explose yesterday. I don't think any of us girls wanted to be there yesterday and it was kind of boring . I do know that he wanted us to fully know the song but all she kept doing was repeating the same lines over and over and over. I know she thinks its going to help us which it might but she kept repeating for an hour and a half. thats OVERLOAD...... hopefully next week will be better. I think it will.

Horoscope

Today my horoscope read: You might be carrying a torch and not even know it. A friendship might be developing into something more intimate.
This is scaring me have to death. My friends are telling me its a sign but I dont want it to be. I mean he is only a freind thats a boy not a "Boyfriend". They just don't seem to get that one little fact. I really would like them to believe me. I admit that I do talk about him a lot but thats only because we are really good friends, swimming ro no swimming. I hope to have my friends believe me and stop trying to make this a big deal but its not. Please no this all those who are reading this. I still want your advice but I also want to know that you are on my side.

my days was so relaxing... all I did in two classes(Chem and Art) was absolutly nothing. It was so relaxing until I had choir. I thought my legs were going to give out by the end of rehersal but thankfully they lasted. I was also getting annoyed because we kept repeating the same songs and it was getting very repetative. But i think we need to in order to memorize they words and notes and be ready when A comes back on monday.